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Name: NurEshaa Raena Khan
Nickies:Nur,Nur-E,NurEsha12
Sha, Nazryn, Esha
LadyPurpleRoze
Email:nite_maiden89@
yahoo.com.sg
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[Complicated]
[Sweetness]
[Adventurous]
[RiskTaker]
[Sarcastic]
[Direct-to-the-point]
[Dark&Mysterious]
[Undecipherable]
(: Love me or hate me, its still an obsession

my LOVES

Music that's necessary
Hindi[EVERYTHING FROM BOLLYWOOD TO HINDIPOP TO HINGLISH] Evanescence
Within Temptation
The Rasmus
Paramore
Lacuna Coil
Muse
Simple Plan
Good Charlotte
Kelly Clarkson

books
poetry
art
Cooking&Baking
Music(its a neccessity!)
Shopping!=]
Black&Purple
Green&Maroon
Being myself
The Indian culture
EARRINGS!!!
ACCESSORIES!!!
Aries Chick
(:

Loved & Lost

SpecialSweetHearts
Esha&Zuhara
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Esha&Mahira
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Esha&Riah
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Esha&NazDee
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Esha&Liah
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Ira D Diva
The Sistaz&Brothaz Adored.
LadyRozzes
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StarliteGazers
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Rodiya
Pooja
Zakya
Sasha
Shareeq
Sara
Shifa
Farez
El
SengXun
Natty mof


~InLovingMemory~
Azaan
Fareez
Aqeel
Three wonderful people I'll never forget.
Stars Galore
Sameera Reddy
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EshaDeol
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PriyankaChopra
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DiyaMirza
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BipashaBasu
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SalmanKhan
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ZayedKhan


GauravKhanna!!
Photobucket IqbalKhan
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EmraanHashmi
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Neil Nitin Mukesh
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ImranKhan
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SyedYasirShah
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my PAINS

Despises!!!!
Backstabbers
Bitches
Playas & Casanovas
Being Judge Unfairly
MATZ&POSERZ

...MY MYSTIQUE MELODIES


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com


...Divas&Dudes

*Yanna
*Hudaa
*Fajaa
*Fykaa
*Hilly
*Fee
*Yinnn
*Farhani
*SengXun
*Asryna
*MysticMe
*Jessica
*Nizam
*Haleema
*ErnyDee
*Rodiva
*Jamilah
*Shareeq
*Wanii
*Iraa
*Faiz
*Raudhah
*Yatie
*Shafawati
*Hidayah DPSS
*Hidayah
*NurHuda
*Twilight Quotes

ICE ANGEL
XIAXUE


...HISTORY


  • January 2005
  • February 2005
  • March 2005
  • April 2005
  • May 2005
  • June 2005
  • July 2005
  • August 2005
  • September 2005
  • November 2005
  • January 2006
  • March 2006
  • April 2006
  • May 2006
  • June 2006
  • July 2006
  • August 2006
  • September 2006
  • November 2006
  • December 2006
  • January 2007
  • February 2007
  • March 2007
  • April 2007
  • May 2007
  • June 2007
  • July 2007
  • October 2007
  • November 2007
  • December 2007
  • January 2008
  • February 2008
  • March 2008
  • April 2008
  • May 2008
  • June 2008
  • July 2008
  • August 2008
  • September 2008
  • October 2008
  • November 2008
  • December 2008
  • January 2009
  • February 2009
  • March 2009
  • April 2009
  • May 2009
  • June 2009
  • July 2009
  • August 2009
  • September 2009

  • ...Mysterious Whispers


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    Saturday, September 19, 2009


    Eid-Mubarak

     

    This post is dedicated to these groups of people namely

    Family [Ummi and Bros]

    SoulSistaz [Erny, Farhani, Yati]

    Desi Girls [Fathima, NazDee, Nazia, Fiza, Badriah]

    LadyRozzes [Faja Fyka Yan Huda]

    Ex-Damaians [Niz, Faiz, Shikin, Zakya, Azlina, Amalina]

    The ITE Niteys [Mahira, Sarah & Farizan]

    & of course to

    Colleagues & New Friends

    [Aziedah, Huda, Faridah, Nisha, Farez & Aamir]

     

    I know I can be annoying and irritating and also impatient

    but I would like to take this opportunity to

    ask for forgiveness if I have offended you guys in any way

    Be it through teasing, jokes or just plain rudeness

    Sorry.

    Inshallah we’ll meet again this year during the Eid house visits

    [no more green packets. how sad]

    Teehehehe.

     

    Loves,

    NurEsha Raena Khan

    Move towards my direction ;

    Tuesday, September 15, 2009


    had a counselling session with mahira yesterday. She needed the company. I wish her all the best. I care for her immensely but she's afraid of attachment becos attachment leads to separation in her mind. but that was not how I was brought up nor taught by my mom. Yest was the first time I saw her in that state. A side of her she never shows anyone. It shows how much she's learnt to trust me and I promise girl I won't let you down.

    I didnt have the heart to talk to her about my emotional distress because she does not need more than she already has. I opened up to Aamir yesterday and I shocked myself. I dont talk to guys about my personal life. Period. Well except for Farez. He knows abt my ex and the sad past. But that was after I knew him for a couple of years. I barely know this dude. I don't know. Like I said to him yesterday either I am really stupid for telling him all that or I am starting to trust him. Honestly, I think I am starting to trust people again.

    We made our decision yesterday and I'll leave it to time. I get intrigued by new things but I also get bored easily. If I can actually stay long enough interested in something that means I am serious. If not, I tend to treat things like this as novelty. Yes its evil and bad, but what can I do? I have short attention span. haha.

    Till here. Miss all the pple that I usually miss.

    Loves,
    Nuresha Raena Khan

    Move towards my direction ;

    Sunday, September 13, 2009


     

    I need to see you cry
    I wanna, I wanna see you cry
    Won't rest until I see you cry
    Yeah I cry, I cry, I cry
    Had me convinced that I just wasn't enough,
    Me and you fussing and fighting cursing all of that stuff,
    Now I know, that I might've done you wrong,
    Didn't know I'd pay so long, 'til you did the same,
    I know I'd done you wrong I was making it up to you,
    I apologised in a million ways but I thought that was that,
    But I guess you got me back,
    Didn't know itd be like that, but you did the same...
    Now we're caught in a circle
    A constant battle
    The day that u hurt me
    The clouds cast a shadow on us
    And I hope that your happy we're even now, so cry baby cry
    Let me see you cry, cry, cry
    I need to see you cry, cry, cry
    Until your tears run dry, dry, dry
    Like the deserts need the rain
    Want ya tears to fall down on me
    Cry, cry, cry
    I need to see you cry, cry, cry
    Until your tears run dry, dry, dry
    Like the deserts need the rain
    Want ya tears to fall down on me
    Before the love just turns to hate,
    Before I ask for you to stay,
    And just before you walk away, yeah
    What is this? What happens to relationships?
    Started off so good and ended up so bad
    Baby I just wanna know,
    Ooh tell me do you know, baby
    Before we knew it we were at it again,
    No no no, somehow I don't think we can ever be friends,
    Wish it wasn't so, wish it wasn't so, but you did the same...
    Now we're caught in a circle
    A constant battle
    The day that u hurt me
    The clouds cast a shadow on us
    And I hope that your happy we're even now, so cry baby cry
    Let me see you cry, cry, cry,
    I need to see you cry, cry, cry,
    Until our tears run dry, dry, dry,
    Like the deserts need the rain,
    Want your tears to fall down on me,
    Before the love just turns to hate,
    Before I ask for you to stay,
    And just before you walk away, yeah
    So we go on and on on this merry go round,
    Trying to chase a love that can never be found,
    Time to say goodbye and step off of it now,
    It's over girl, it's over
    Let me see you cry, cry, cry,
    I need to see you cry, cry, cry,
    Until your tears run dry, dry, dry,
    Like the deserts need the rain,
    Want your tears to fall down on me
    Speaking-
    I need to see you cry
    I wanna, I wanna see you cry
    Won't rest until I see you cry
    Yeah I cry, I cry, I cry

    I still remember the day I actually listened to this song with anger in my heart and venom in my blood for Far. It was after one of our huge fights. I was extremely angry at the way he reacted and the way he was exercising his right on me as if he owned me. The comments and the nonsense he spewed based on what happened to his friend made me angry. He didn’t listen to both sides of the story before judging and thus painting everyone with the same brush. But now, there’s a sense of loneliness in me whenever he comes to mind. It started off as revenge but he got under my skin. There was affection for him in my heart, infatuation some may say but whatever that was, it is still present in my heart. Nights like this when the memories come rushing back, I cannot help but cry when I remember Azaan’s last message and Far’s last entry. Nights like this makes me wanna see them just one more time before they left forever. Tears can’t stop falling when I remember Aqeel’s nonsense and cheekiness when we met for the first time at Mustafa. Why must I feel this way again? after a whole year. will this repeat each year as their anniversary looms? will I ever walk away from this wreck unscathed? will I ever heal? will my heart ever heal? Will I ever be whole again? questions that remained unanswered as months go by and it will not ever be answered at all. I leave it all up to Him. Time heals the deepest of all wounds and I am sure in time I’ll learn to numb and move on.

     

    Loves

    Nuresha Raena Khan.

    Move towards my direction ;

    Friday, September 11, 2009


    had fun with the soulsistaz yesterday. Been a long while since we had an iftaar session. Heck, any session infact due to our busy schedules. Haha. Had migraine yesterday afternoon yet that didn't stop me from meeting them. I grew up with these girls and they know me and my quirks. Hahaha. The same way I know them and theirs. They have been there before anyone else in my life. Hahaha. We fight, argue, scream and shout but we still cry and make up later. That's just us. And I have to say that this is the very reason why our foundation is still strong and not shaky.

    Let me introduce US. hahaha.

    Ernyhardian- Ella Dee (she used to be hiphop dee)
    Siti Farhani- Farnie (forever and always pop princess)
    Siti Nurhayati- CT (the resident counsellor and peacemaker, BLUE)

    and of course yours truly,

    Nur/Fas- NurEsha (goth chicka then, goth princess now and also bollywood glam diva.)

    hahaha.. feeling... anyways getting back to where I was.

    Oh yeah, we had our iftaar session at Popeyes. Hahaha. Was supposed to go to Arnolds but the crowd there, HORRIBLE! Seriously. We packed the foodies and headed up to the viewing gallery where we had fun photo taking (i still refuse to degrade ladies by using the term camwhoring. its disgusting) and had our iftaar there. and we spent the rest of the time talking and gossiping.. gagagaga! Had chocolates for dessert and mainly fun fun fun!!

    Ella, we need to plan the Eid meetup. Lets do it old skool yeah. WIth wani and all. It'll be damn nice to see how the rest have matured over the years of not meeting. And I'll be seeing you next week. Yeapee!!

    Pictures will be up soon once I get the photos frm my LG Secret and Ella's Ultra. Hehehe

    NurEsha-LG Secret
    Ella- Samsung Ultra
    CT- Samsung Omnia eh? Or is it Star?
    Farnie- Sony Ericsson.
    [the odd one out. coz we're all using Korean brands. Lol]

    Oh yeah, the Rozzes meet up pictures still pending. Need to chase Yan for that. She has most of the stuff.

    Missing Fathima, NazDee and Badriah. And for some unknown reason, missing a certain Mr Smurf. Bahh.>_<"

    Till here, will post again.

    Loves, Huggs, Kisses
    NurEsha Raena Khan

    P.S Just coz I don't post often does not mean that I am not as expressive as I used to be, just coz I have tonnes of entries everywhere. FB, Tagged, my own personal diaries and random notes. Just selective posting. I post what I want people to see. Teehehe.;)

    Move towards my direction ;

    Tuesday, September 08, 2009


    somebody rightly said that I won't be able to move on from my past.. its been nearly a year and I still can't forget you. I will never trust another like I trusted you. People come and people go but they don't have the same temperament. The kind that is needed to understand me fully. I hate it when poeple manage to guess what the hell is going on in my brain but at the same time I know I have to accept the fact that what they assumed about me turns out to be true. Time heals all wounds they say.. Maybe it will.. But as for now, I'm happy being who I am now.

    As for you Z, I have no idea how to tell you that I am unable to reciprocate the feelings you have for me. The C & L word scares me shitless and I am not one who will fall for that garbage. I'll have to break the news eventually but I'll have to think of a way so I won't sound rude. I'm truly sorry but I can't lead you on. If you wanna walk away after this then I guess its you prerogative but if you wanna remain friends, then I'm fine with it. Sorry dude, you're talented and you will find someone else.

    Mr Fa... Hmmm.. I don't know why and I refuse to comprehend why you're always on my mind. You're just a friend and yet I am comfortable talking to you. The worst part? I miss you and I barely know you. I don't know really... But ever since we became friends, you've been on my mind more often than not... Could it be the resemblance? I truly have no idea..

    Sweet talking I think was invented by South Asians coz it seems to me most of the sweet talkers are people of my race.. Not saying its a good thing but yeah, think about it.. Especially for apna desis.. Soch toh zara meri yaaras.. Hahaha... I think you will agree.. anyways till here..

    Loves, Huggs & misses,
    NurEsha Raena Khan

    Move towards my direction ;

    Thursday, September 03, 2009


    I got a new job after months of searching. Thank you Allah. And I end up at the library again. Hmm.. Sometimes I wonder what is it with me going around drifting from place to place only to end up at the same department only a different location. Same goes to my babe Nishita. Hahah. It seems we end up at the same place again and again.

     

    also thanks to these people who wished me luck and prayed for me.

    Ummi jaan and the bros.

    Fathima my honorary sista

    Naz Dee for her confidence in me

    Mahira for your unwavering believe in my confidence.

    Hilyah, Fyka, Fiza Khan

    Aamir although I am still annoyed at you

    and lastly

    Z.

     

    Its weird how you thought that you were not looking for anything when suddenly a stranger comes along and messes up the balance you took years to perfect. The facade that you so carefully stitched for the world to see and swallow either out of ignorance or force fed gets unravelled. Thread by thread slowly a piece of exquisite cloth fabricated of lies and embroidered by tears dissolve into nothingness leaving you vulnerable. Only one person managed to do that and I wanted it to stay that way. Maybe He has something else planned for me. I leave it all up to him.

     

    “Don’t shed tears if you’ve bled for it was corrupted blood seeking escape. Be thankful that you’re clean of the poison you’ve nurse so long as if it is ambrosia from the gods”

     

    On a brighter note, I’ll be meeting the Rozzes tmrw for Iftaar session. Missed them like crazy. Till here. Loves, kisses and misses.

     

    Nuresha Raena Khan.

    :):)

    Move towards my direction ;

    Monday, August 17, 2009


    its that time of the year again where life gets extremely confusing for me. details? i rather not elaborate. Its enough that I am jobless and desperately seeking a job when all these effing employers refuse to give me a call. Ramadhan is around the corner and I know I should be happy. Embrace it with open arms for the amount of barakah in the coming month is endless. But yet a nagging feeling refuses to let me go. something is going to happen in the coming month and I am not sure on which end of the spectrum will it be. I pray that it will be positive.

     

    on a brighter note, I finally met up with bestie after aeons of not meeting her. okayy.. exaggerating much. It feels like aeons but the last time I met her was in April. sometime around my birthday. I am proud of you for proving it to those who have always doubted your abilities and capabilities. It is not an easy path that you have chosen but I know you will make it. I am always here for you. We had fun watching Love Aaj Kal. And a certain stupid line Saif keeps on repeating in the movie got stuck in my head.

    “We’re aam log hai. We’re mango people”

    Since that day till today I have been repeating that stupid line much to the annoyance of hafeez who ask me to shut up whenever I repeat that line.

     

    I am one of those people who gets bored easily and it is a known fact that I tend to ignore those who bore me and also utilize them whenever I am feeling exceptionally mean and evil. Like a certain person I used to call a friend before he broke my trust and angered me. I don’t usually make use of people because I had been there on the receiving end and I don’t like the feeling. It took me awhile to heal and trust again because the one who used me was a close friend. But that is over now and we all have grown, matured to be adults and better people. I have forgiven her and we’re still friends now. Albeit not as close as before but close enough simply because we share a history, we grew up together and we’ve weathered through storms.

     

    But this is about you. I don’t know what your intentions are. But I really hope you’re here to stay. As a friend or something more I don’t know and I don’t even want to contemplate. I’ll take things as it goes and that essentially means leaving it to time. and fate too. At the same time, I don’t feel like moving on. I know its wrong and I should continue to live on because that is what you wanted ultimately for me but I am afraid. The whole ritual again. And it does not help either that most are clueless and idiotic. Frankly, I am tired of it. Weary. Hilarious? I know and I am barely 20. Maybe I mature too much too fast as Mahira never forgets to remind me. But in the environment I grew up in, maturity is a necessity not a privilege. It is a survival mechanism, something that helps keep me sane. Insanity runs in an endless circle in my life and it is never gonna end.

     

    Till here people,

    loves, huggs kisses and misses

    Nuresha Raena Khan

    Move towards my direction ;