For the moment, silence prevails. But if you know me well enough, then these pictures paint the perfect situation of what I am going through now.
Please do coz the pain is killing me.
Nuresha writes again
Thursday, November 13, 2008
You came into my life even before I knew love
You were a mentor a philosopher a friend
You were the brother God forgot to give me
You were all I ever wanted
You were a mentor a philosopher a friend
You were the brother God forgot to give me
You were all I ever wanted
As we grew up, we went our separate ways
Yet you were always there all the while
Always watching always guiding
Always there to watch me pick myself up
Yet you were always there all the while
Always watching always guiding
Always there to watch me pick myself up
It came to a point
You became more than just a brother to me
You teased taunt and irritated me
Just to get me out of my shell
You became more than just a brother to me
You teased taunt and irritated me
Just to get me out of my shell
Slowly but surely you were getting under my skin
You stole my heart from me with
Your antics and wisecracks
Your style and your charm
You stole my heart from me with
Your antics and wisecracks
Your style and your charm
You became a tattoo that I simply cannot get rid of
A name engraved deep in my heart
No matter how hard,
I can never get you out
A name engraved deep in my heart
No matter how hard,
I can never get you out
Promises made, I kept them
Ever waiting, ever faithful
We had alot going on. The silent stares.
The cheeky winking. And the name calling.
The confusion. The momentary lapse of judgement.
No matter what, I knew that I loved you.
Ever waiting, ever faithful
We had alot going on. The silent stares.
The cheeky winking. And the name calling.
The confusion. The momentary lapse of judgement.
No matter what, I knew that I loved you.
Why did you have to leave me
So sudden. Unexpected.
The promises made. Crumbled like ashes in the wind
Its over. The waiting and pining.
So sudden. Unexpected.
The promises made. Crumbled like ashes in the wind
Its over. The waiting and pining.
But in a way I never expected.
You came into my life in a whirlwind.
You left me in the exact same way.
An empty heart wrecked by emotions.
Love.Pain.Hurt.Regret.
Denial is there but its futile
You left me in the exact same way.
An empty heart wrecked by emotions.
Love.Pain.Hurt.Regret.
Denial is there but its futile
Voices tell me I should go on.
Your voice tells me I should move on
Its hard to let you go when I keep on thinking
Of what we could have.
How do I go on without you in my life?
Your voice tells me I should move on
Its hard to let you go when I keep on thinking
Of what we could have.
How do I go on without you in my life?
Its over. The waiting. The pining.
All that is left are tears
Tears of pain and regret.
The heart bleeds again for you.
Crimson tears fall from the scars.
You keep me drowning in your love.
All that is left are tears
Tears of pain and regret.
The heart bleeds again for you.
Crimson tears fall from the scars.
You keep me drowning in your love.
All I wish for now
Is strength from God
Strength for me to go on
Strength for me to swallow the bitter truth.
Strength for me to help my mum go on.
Is strength from God
Strength for me to go on
Strength for me to swallow the bitter truth.
Strength for me to help my mum go on.
All I have for you are prayers.
My prayers are always with you
Wherever you are now
May HE bestows peace and blessings
Upon your soul. The three of your souls.
My prayers are always with you
Wherever you are now
May HE bestows peace and blessings
Upon your soul. The three of your souls.
I guess we were never meant to be.
But memories we had
Are cherished forever
But memories we had
Are cherished forever
I've thrown the key to my heart
Somewhere in the sea
Let it be lost in the waves
Maybe some day it will come back
Someone who can brave the choppy waves
Somewhere in the sea
Let it be lost in the waves
Maybe some day it will come back
Someone who can brave the choppy waves
I am numb. Tears have not stop falling.
Ever there threatening to rain
Holding it back.
Swallowing the posion.
For the moment.
Hurt.Heartbroken.Numb
Ever there threatening to rain
Holding it back.
Swallowing the posion.
For the moment.
Hurt.Heartbroken.Numb
~InLovingMemoryOfFareez,Azaan,Aqeel~
Nuresha writes again
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Here are a few videos of my favorite star, GAURAV KHANNA!!!! Man I missed Meri Doli Teri Angana and watching him on TV. Haizzz... Anyways, to Gaurav deewanis like me and Naz Dee, enjoy!!!!
SEE HIM IN A DIFFERENT LIGHT!!!
HIM AS MOGAMBO!!!!
And this is Gaurav with Pallavi doing a SHava Shava Number
Tyohaar Dhamaka. Uttar ke Puttar, Gaurav Khanna Gaurav Chopra and Nandini Singh.
Nagada Nagada.
Zara Sa Vid Mix of Simraan & Ruhaan, My favorite couple
And teri deewani... Yes, I am a Gaurav Deewani. Hahahah.. Damn Proud of it!!!
Hahhahahaha!!!!
Loves, Huggs, Kisses and Misses,
NurEshaa
[p.s I am missing someone very badly, hence the videos. Jahan bhi ho, please be safe and return home safely jaan. I really miss you zaan.]
Nuresha writes again
the sun was setting painting a rainbow of hues upon the sky. Red, orange, yellow and pink, bursting with brilliance in the sky, painting the end of another day and the closure of a chapter in a person's life, preparing for another day for those lucky enough to see the sun rise again the next day. So unlike the painting of an artist. The beauty of Nature that mere mortals cannot replicate despite trying hard. The emotions that arises with such a scenery is hard to even be conveyed in words. Two souls stood at the water break staring at the beauty of nature while deep in conversation, each lost in their own overwhelming emotions.
" I know how much you've been hurt by the past, by me, but give me a chance to prove that I am worthy of you" he says.
" A lot came and go saying those lines. Even you said that. Why should I believe you again?" she asks looking onto the horizon.
" I am a different person now. You know me. I am not like them." he says
" Why should I give you a chance at something that may crumble later on and risk the friendship we have? Give me a very good reason as to why should I give you a chance? I know you're different but only because you're my friend. I know how you treated the rest. I am not a piece of paper that you use and recycle later over and over again. I am not like them." she told him in a shaky voice, looking into his eyes.
" I did all that because I was scared of the feelings I had for you. I could not comprehend why was I feeling that way when I did not believe in the existence of love. What is love afterall? All love does is hurt. I was scared that I would finally hurt you in the end with my attitude. I cared for you in a way that I have never done before for anyone else. And I was scared that I may bring tears to your eyes just by loving you. ANd I believed that you deserve someone better than me"
" If you know how to love, you should also learn how to trust your feelings. What is the point of falling in love when you are afraid to cause hurt and tears. Love is never sunshine and kittens. It is like a roller coaster ride. The next twist and turn comes without any warning. We fall but we also learn to stand up and walk all over again despite the scrapes and the bruises. And if I thought you were wrong for me, I would not have said yes to commitment with you. I knew what I was getting into when I said yes. And I was ready to trust you even though I may get hurt and bleed in the process. But when you broke off with me, I was devastated. Emraan wanted to settle things with you but I told him to leave it. It was between the both of us and I don't want things between him and your cousin to sour because of our personal problems. When I saw you with that witch, I was broken inside."
" He still came to see me. And yeah he gave me a broken jaw. He was not happy when he knew that we were friends again and he was constantly watching me, just in case I made any funny moves. And Bianca, I was never into her. She threw herself at me when she saw you coming over to see me. She was bitter ever since I ended things with her for your sake. SHe wanted to get back at you for "stealing" me away from her. After you walked of with tears spilling on your cheeks, I slapped her and asked her to leave me alone. And Emraan finally warmed up to me after he saw the whole slapping incident. And he heard my confession." he interrupted her quietly.
"What confession? I knew he never liked it when I was friends again with you and I expected that broken jaw to happen. He's protective of me. What confession Zee?" she enquired again.
"Let that be between me and Emraan, Sha. Certain things are not meant to be known. Hahah. I know that to well. It was not my first black eye from him and I am definitely not the first guy to have ever received that. Hell, I even helped him to beat up idiots who hurt our girls. But I never expected to get it from him."
" Expect the unexpected Zee. Look at the water Zee. The tide is going out. Life is like that yaar. We expect only the good in life and love. Not the excess baggage that comes with it. How is that possible. Life is not life without the occasional downs. Now, how can it always be high tide? If that were to happen, do you have any idea what is going to happen to the city? Floods everywhere. Too much of a good thing can also be bad. That is why there are highs and lows. If I wanted candy clouds and sunshine all the time, I would not have chosen someone as complicated as you are to fall in love with." she explained the fact of life to him.
" I realise my mistake of letting you go when it kills me seeing you go out with other guys just to heal the pain. But I know that you're bleeding inside. I see your unshed tears in your poems and writings. ANd I cried with you. I knew then that it was love afterall. I love you. So now, tell me are you going to give me that one more chance? Are you?" he asks her looking deep into her eyes making it impossible for her to look away.
Deep down, she knows that there is no one else for her except him. She's lost her heart to him and it was impossible for her to be whole again without him by her side. But being the stubborn girl she is, she refuses to accept that she can actually forgive him that easily. The question is now, should she accept him back? Or should she just leave it at that? Her hazel eyes held alot of questions that left unanswered. He looks at her with hope in his eyes. Hope that she would forgive him. Hope that she would accept him. Hope that this time its going to be forever. Could it be forever? Or was it goodbye??
" I know how much you've been hurt by the past, by me, but give me a chance to prove that I am worthy of you" he says.
" A lot came and go saying those lines. Even you said that. Why should I believe you again?" she asks looking onto the horizon.
" I am a different person now. You know me. I am not like them." he says
" Why should I give you a chance at something that may crumble later on and risk the friendship we have? Give me a very good reason as to why should I give you a chance? I know you're different but only because you're my friend. I know how you treated the rest. I am not a piece of paper that you use and recycle later over and over again. I am not like them." she told him in a shaky voice, looking into his eyes.
" I did all that because I was scared of the feelings I had for you. I could not comprehend why was I feeling that way when I did not believe in the existence of love. What is love afterall? All love does is hurt. I was scared that I would finally hurt you in the end with my attitude. I cared for you in a way that I have never done before for anyone else. And I was scared that I may bring tears to your eyes just by loving you. ANd I believed that you deserve someone better than me"
" If you know how to love, you should also learn how to trust your feelings. What is the point of falling in love when you are afraid to cause hurt and tears. Love is never sunshine and kittens. It is like a roller coaster ride. The next twist and turn comes without any warning. We fall but we also learn to stand up and walk all over again despite the scrapes and the bruises. And if I thought you were wrong for me, I would not have said yes to commitment with you. I knew what I was getting into when I said yes. And I was ready to trust you even though I may get hurt and bleed in the process. But when you broke off with me, I was devastated. Emraan wanted to settle things with you but I told him to leave it. It was between the both of us and I don't want things between him and your cousin to sour because of our personal problems. When I saw you with that witch, I was broken inside."
" He still came to see me. And yeah he gave me a broken jaw. He was not happy when he knew that we were friends again and he was constantly watching me, just in case I made any funny moves. And Bianca, I was never into her. She threw herself at me when she saw you coming over to see me. She was bitter ever since I ended things with her for your sake. SHe wanted to get back at you for "stealing" me away from her. After you walked of with tears spilling on your cheeks, I slapped her and asked her to leave me alone. And Emraan finally warmed up to me after he saw the whole slapping incident. And he heard my confession." he interrupted her quietly.
"What confession? I knew he never liked it when I was friends again with you and I expected that broken jaw to happen. He's protective of me. What confession Zee?" she enquired again.
"Let that be between me and Emraan, Sha. Certain things are not meant to be known. Hahah. I know that to well. It was not my first black eye from him and I am definitely not the first guy to have ever received that. Hell, I even helped him to beat up idiots who hurt our girls. But I never expected to get it from him."
" Expect the unexpected Zee. Look at the water Zee. The tide is going out. Life is like that yaar. We expect only the good in life and love. Not the excess baggage that comes with it. How is that possible. Life is not life without the occasional downs. Now, how can it always be high tide? If that were to happen, do you have any idea what is going to happen to the city? Floods everywhere. Too much of a good thing can also be bad. That is why there are highs and lows. If I wanted candy clouds and sunshine all the time, I would not have chosen someone as complicated as you are to fall in love with." she explained the fact of life to him.
" I realise my mistake of letting you go when it kills me seeing you go out with other guys just to heal the pain. But I know that you're bleeding inside. I see your unshed tears in your poems and writings. ANd I cried with you. I knew then that it was love afterall. I love you. So now, tell me are you going to give me that one more chance? Are you?" he asks her looking deep into her eyes making it impossible for her to look away.
Deep down, she knows that there is no one else for her except him. She's lost her heart to him and it was impossible for her to be whole again without him by her side. But being the stubborn girl she is, she refuses to accept that she can actually forgive him that easily. The question is now, should she accept him back? Or should she just leave it at that? Her hazel eyes held alot of questions that left unanswered. He looks at her with hope in his eyes. Hope that she would forgive him. Hope that she would accept him. Hope that this time its going to be forever. Could it be forever? Or was it goodbye??
Okay... Thats the start.. Tell me if u like it... Hahaha..
Cheerios!
Love, Kisses and Misses
NurEshaa
Nuresha writes again
Monday, October 27, 2008
261008...A date I'll remember... Those who made it happen... Thank You and LOVES!!!!
It was Ummi's birthday actually so yeah a small gathering inviting the close ones, other words, my besties and sistaz.. Thank you Yati, Farhani, Fathima, Badariah, NazDee and Naziah for coming.. Pics up...
NurEshaa, Fathima, Umarul, Yati, Farhani, Sarah
Fathima,NurEsha,Hazeeq,NazDee,Naziah
And US AGAIN...
Badariah,NurEshaa
Thats all people... Hate the cramps...
Loves,kisses and misses,
NURESHAA12
=)=)=)
Nuresha writes again
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
ouhkayyy... I was in the middle of my update 2 days ago when somebody shut down the computer
without my knowledge...
i feel like strangling him but my better senses stopped me.
damn.
anyways,
I went to the zee carnival like 2 weeks ago with the happening sisters, nazDee and Naziah.
simply rocking.
i came late so had no chance to take pictures with aditya narayan.
bummer, nevermind.
but after months and years of dreaming, my dreams came true.
people mainly came to the carnival to get a glimpse of the king khan, shah rukh khan
and try to touch him wondering if he's the same as mere mortals like us but not me and NazDee for that matter.
i was there to have fun mainly after the fiasco that happened 2 weeks ago.
as people know, or those who know anyways,
I don't adore shah rukh like the majority of the female population.
and those who came to the carnival and waited since like 6 am in the morning are really stupid. i mean hello,
nearly a hundred thousand people clamoring for his attention,
and you really think you can get close to him?
get real people, its really ridiculous.
and it was horrible the way kids got hurt because of ridiculous parents trying to use their kids to jump queue and end up getting in a brawl.
nonsense.
yeah i admire his acting, i'm a fan of his work but not him exactly.
he's friendly enough though so i don't get it why are people saying that he's stuck up.
ahh anyways, to each and their own,
after years and months of dreaming,
i finally got the chance to see IQBAL KHAN up close and personal!!!!!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And among us, I was the only one who got to take picture with him. I'm just damn lucky,
just like Dee said. Rite dee?? hahaha...
He's hot. Really hot in real life.
he seems kinda aloof at first but he's good with his fans. i was initially rendered speechless at the sight of him
but i managed to squeak out something about how I adored him in kaisa Yeh Pyaar hai,
those in the know, knows i went crazy over him since that show, i found him in funtoosh weird. hahaha. He was definitely responsible for making me have a celebrity crush after aeons.
yeah it didnt hurt that he was hot as hell.And the fact that he looked alot like a certain someone I was crushing on at that time...( maybe, i am not over fareez as I thought I was coz I keep on seeing him eveywhere after the encounter)
but had real good talents and i am a sucker for people with talent.
well after him came a string of celebrity crushes.and took picture with my favourite couple of all time,
NiharikaRudraa/chandninahr or sharad and Keert.
it started with IQBAL KHAN,
then Syed Yasir Shah( Azaan in Khwaish)
followed by Gaurav kHanna( ruhaan in meri doli teri angana, nivaan in ardhangini)
and a few others which did not last as long as them.
and yeah I'm dying slowly with no cable Tv at home YET.
yes, yet. coz ummi says we gonna get it back in december.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can't wait. That means hindi shows again.
YIPEEEEEEE!!!! Honestly, I can die watching Suria.
I mean it. nonsense all the time.
back to bollywood, if people were to ask me who was my first love,
shamelessly I would say, SALMAN KHAN. Yeah, I knew him before the rest of the male population.
I fell in love with him ever since his movie, Maine Pyaar Kiya.
the fact that i grew up in an indian family and have a pathani mother who is equally obsessed with sallu miya as I am helps. Yeah. I adore him.
then there was bobby deol and his movies, I loved him in Soldier.
and then came darling zayed Khan. Yeah my dear darling. It was Chura liya Hai tumne that made me go gaga over him. hahaha. till today.
I cannot wait to watch his movies coming up like Yuvraaj and blue, combining my two loved stars, Zayed and Sallu miya. Yipee!!!!
Then came people like Neil Nitiin Mukesh after Johnny Gaddar and Imran Khan after Jaane tu Ya Jaane Na. for some reason,
ranbir kapoor didnt have the effect on me like neil does,
yeah, i mean i do find ranbir cute but he does not have his father's charm.
and wats with deepika padukone? I mean it. He could have done much better.
Its sad when friendship of many years just stop abruptly because of new people in your life. Sonam was Much better.
The last I heard of her's and Ranbir's dosti was that things were getting cold and she decides to cold shoulder ranbir for his treatment of her.
Deepika is a pretty face but talent wise, she needs to attend more classes either by subhash ghai or anupam kher.
I don't accept the unanimous consensus that she was outstanding in Om shanti om and neither was she good in bachna ae haseeno.
a lot of film critics agree with me so to her fans, im sorry if i Hurt you with my comments.
Sanjay dutt saif ali khan and shahid kapoor are adorations of mine too.
female stars.
Madhuri Dixit,Karishma Kapoor, Rani Mukherjee esha deol, priyanka chopra, sameera reddy and diya mirza.
madhuri Dixit since Dil Tera Aashiq.,Karishma since Jeet, Rani since Ghulam, esha deol since dhoom,
priyanka chopra since kismat, sameera reddy since musafir and diya mirza since forever.
hahahaha. for some reason, I don't find Aishwarya Rai interesting at all.
she's not that good really and she's too thin for a miss world. and i simply don't like her for the havoc she wreak in salman's life.
Katrina's undoubtedly the female of the moment now but I am still not convinced yet.
hahahaha. Sonam has potential though. She still has a long way to go and she will eventually succeed,
Minisha Lamba too.
Reel life and real life couple. My favorites of all time.
AngadKripa(Iqbal & Neha)
NiharikaRudraa(Sharad & Keerti)
RuhaanSimran(GauravKhanna&Priyamvada)
AzaanAfreen(Syed Yasir Shah & Priya)
ShabdMahii(Neha & Vivan Bhatena)
Shahrukh & Kajol(dilwale dulhaniya le jayenge)
Saif ali khan & Preity Zinta(SalaamNamaste)
Akshay Kumar & Priyanka Chopra(aitraaz)
Salman Khan & karishma Kapoor( Chal Mere Bhai)
Zayed khan & Diya Mirza (Dus)
Madhuri & Salman(dil tera aashiq)
Zayed Khan & Malaika Khan
Salman Khan & Katrina Kaif
Bipasha and John abraham
Divyanka & Sharad malhotra
Sharad kelkar & Keerti
Hussain Kuwajerwala and Tina
yups so those are my favourite couples. I think i'll sign of now. Better get some rest. looking forward to tmrw. ice cream date! wheeee!!! Loves kisses and misses,
the most happening couple and us, the lucky ladies, Nitez.
mwahxxx!!!
=)=)=)
NurEshaa12
Nuresha writes again
Saturday, October 11, 2008
sometimes I wonder how parents can be totally insensitive towards their offspring feelings... I mean, yeah its only human to have favourites but as a parent, especially if you're a mother, there is no excuse whatsoever for you not to like your son or daughter for petty reasons like money. I mean as a muslim, you should know that despite the whole "syurga di bawah kaki ibu" mentality, if you're an unfair mother, you will still have to answer when the day comes. and it is the one that you usually hate that will take you in when the others have thrown you out for various reasons they deem valid. But when in actual fact its all nonsense. I still don't get it till today.. I may have a dead beat fucking piece of shit for a dad but atleast my mother and my brothers are always by my side. together we form one unit which is pretty much unbreakable. my mum had a bad mother and now my grandmother is facing the music. her darlings are showing their true colors now. I know its sadistic and sick, cruel at a certain point but I absolutely LOVE the drama and shit they are wreaking in her "perfect" life... hahahahah.. she fucking deserve it... I still am trying to forget the shit that happened a few days back and trying to stop myself form having all this murderous thoughts of what I intend to do if I had the power and the strength to go against my mother and my upbringing... Its thanks to my upbringing he is still here.. If not.....
its been a long while since I used a barrage of profanities in my entries but sometimes the emotions surges and there is no other way except to let out a slew of expletives to make yourself heard... To those who have had to bear with my diatribe, I apologize... A jumble of emotions intertwine in me forming a huge lump of indescribable tears threatening to flow... I used to cut myself... The welts of crimson that forms used to fascinate me... How a painful thing for many can actually soothes my pain. It numbs too sometimes. But slowly I realise that it was unhealthy and resort to a more productive way of releasing my anger and pain, writing. And ever since then, I've been writing and improving my skills. It is thanks to people like Ummi, Fathima and of course Ayaan that I stop my nonsense. I can't see the tears in my Ummi's eyes. I can rebel and withstand any kinda pain but not a mother's tears. SO yeah, I stop. Fathima's constant advising and "nagging" played a part too. That is the reason why I hold people like them close in my heart. They help change me to what I am today. And over the years I made friends like Mahira, Naz Dee and yes of course you my dear Badariah.. Its people like them which makes me think twice before doing anything stupid and self inflicted wounds upon myself. The others know the happy-cheery-bubbly side of me but not my other side. They never knew of my habits till today where I'm coming clean...
That's why you cannot be like them.. Unlike you, they have never back stabbed me or tried to be me. They are always there for me when I need them unlike you where you have various commitments and stuff like that. And they will never let me play second fiddle in their life like you did to me. You find a new friend, I'm left behind. You come to me whenever you find it convenient. I still haven't forgotten. We may be friends now but friendship on my terms. In fact, I like the distance we have now. Its so much simpler. Ahh whatever. Its late and I think I have rambled enough. Nite people. ZEE CARNIVAL TMRW!!!!! WHEEEE!!! IQBAL KHAN!!!!! WHEE!!!!!
the more I try to shine bright, the darker I feel inside...
THE BESTIES/SoulSistaz
Fathima
Mahira
Badariah
Hilyah
NazDee
The Sistaz
LadyRozzes
StarLiteGazers
And the rest...
Khuda Jaane Ke Main Fidaa Hoon
Nuresha writes again
Thursday, October 09, 2008
had a huge fight on monday night... fuck him la.. really... he got the guts to throw me out when I'm helping him run the house... I've had enough of his shit.. Full of fucking nonsense... Ummi says talk, I'll talk but I'll never forgive him... Full of liar's tears... I'll never believe that crap.... I was "possessed" when I started screaming at the top of my lungs when HE blamed my mother for the shit he did to make us lose respect for him.. Oh why don't you just go and die?? And make our lives easier... Ahh hell.. I don't give a crap anymore... TEars wasted on you... Shit... and because of that shit, I've been sick for two days now... Migraine and fever... How can a father actually throw his daughter out and ask her to rot somewhere with her friends?? and how could he call her a "sundal"? I've lost whatever respect I had left the day he called me that word... I punch pple in the face for calling me that and he was damn lucky I didnt bloody his face...
thanks to Naz Dee and Mahira for helping me regain my composure.. Thx dearies.. Love ya...
I'm waiting to meet them again..
Thats all...
Loves,
Nuresha12
Nuresha writes again
Sunday, October 05, 2008
solitude... Now that is something that we rarely have in Singapore.. We're forever rushing here. We rarely have the time to actually stop and smell the roses... We realise that we've lost all the time that we need only too late... I used to have time for myself... I will find time to go to the reservoir and simply enjoy nature... or to the beach just to reflect on my life... but now, I'm just too busy to even have time to de-stress... I need to find a "Me time" soon... I fear I may have lost my creative ability to write poems due to my busy schedule and no that would be a disaster... Nooooooooooo!!!! There goes the drama queen... khair chodo...
this entry is dedicated to a certain monkey... you are a jerk! yes you are... I thought you were a friend... A real good friend of mine in fact but tum baaki ladkon ki tarah nikli... jhoothi farebi! I hate you... I should have listened to bhaijaan... how could you hurt me this way?? I don't give a damn who your girlfriend is... in fact I was the happiest person when you told me you were attached but how was I to know that you were just trying to get me to fall for you... Thanks to Ayeez, I got to know the kinda kameena you really are... I thought I hurt you but hell you're hurting me now by doing this to me... I told you a million times that the friendship we share is more important...You are not trustworthy at all... if it was abt the feelings I don't really give a shit, I know how to handle that kinda crap.. But you bloody backstab me! AND I BLOODY HATE FUCKING BACKSTABBERS!!!! But no you chose to listen to your lafanga dost and try to make me fall for you when you know it very well that I'm holding a torch for someone.... I am not like the rest of the girls... I have my pride and dignity and yes I have a nasty temper on me... You thought you knew me? think again! yes THINK AGAIN!!!!!!!! I've hidden alot from you about my true self... Why should I reveal myself to you when I barely know you... How could you doubted the existence of bhaijaan and Ayeez?? You thought I was making up stories just to make you jealous??? Why would I? Who were you to me?? No one except a real good friend whom I can share my thoughts and frustrations with... Just because you cannot see them does not mean they do not exist.... You were lucky Ayeez did not hit you when he heard you talking about me to your good-for-nothing dost... And it must be bad the way you were talking about me coz you angered Ayeez..My guardian angel... Just consider yourself damn lucky that you're still in one piece... Now because of you, I'm ending the friendship... It could have been beautiful... But remember you chose for it to end this way... I cannot believe I misjudged you...I really can't believe it... Hell I trusted you damn it!!! I did!!! I regretted every moment we shared.. I really do... You're the worst so far... None of my platonic friendship ended this way before.... You're the first... ANd it hasn't even been a year since we've been frens! You know what, fuck it! I bloody hate you fucker!! I rather have you un named coz there is someone here who knows you... Bloody fucktard!! Don't ever let me catch sight of you outside coz I swear to god I'm gonna bloody your horse face fucktard!! My blood boils at the sight of you fucktard!!! Got the bloody cheek to ask me how am I and ask me why am I angry... You're a desperado fucktard you know that... Here's a word of advice, change your bloody fucktard ways before you can get a gal.... If not, no gal is gonna want you, you fucking bastard! Stop talking big for a change and prove your words.. Afterall actions speak louder than words fucktard!!
Fuhhh... Now that feels better..Alott better...I've been keeping it bottled up for too long... So long fucktard!!!
Anyways, nite my lovely readers.. Thx for hearing me rant... Loves,
NurEshaa12
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Nuresha writes again
Alritey... I know there's alot for me to update and so I will... Shortened version of what the galfies wrote in their blogg
4 of the Rozzes met up with Faiz and Nizam one day to break fast missing Huda... When Hudaa was around, I was busy... Nevermind we shall meet up again...
We had so much fun at popeyes after failing to convert yann to be shameless like the rest of us eating chicken like kids outside... We had tonnes of fun happy clicking with the rest... crazy outta control pple we are... seriously... crazy ex damaians... hahaha... made a mess at BREEKS while having massive attack... endless arguments abt the chocolate ice cream and the shake... despite us trying to convince yann that the choc ice cream and the shake are made of the same thing... CHOCOLATE la de... hahahah... Snap Snap Snap... Click Click Click... We reached home after 11... hahahhahaha... the latest for us yet.... But Hey so much fun had in years... We definitely should get together again galfies and guyfies... hahaha
The Starlite Gazers met up again after years of separation... We've all grown up and its been too long for us to keep grudges... And Erny, I'm happy if you are... I'll tolerate him but bosom friends we'll not be.. Sorry... hehehe... Had dinner at teh tarik cartel.... all of us chose pattayya dishes.... it was either kway teow, maggi, rice or yellow noodles.... mocha milo for the SHAWTIES, limey gingery tea for me and limey tea for Yati... Then we had fun happy snapping...AGAIN!!!!! Hahahaha... We went frm the top of Tiong Bahru Plaza to the bottom.. click click click... hahhahaha...
And you my dear.... you knew I was looking for you in the train... I recognized your perfume underneath the mask of DKNY delicious.... What did you do? Followed us all the way to Tiong Bahru Plaza and had your iftaar at BURGER KING... After that, tailed us around and had fun watching us taking pictures and behaving like juvenile as you so nicely put it.... I know you are thinking of my safety but leave an anonymous tagg somewhere yaara... nobody's gonna know... Yes I know U READ MY BLOG... so no point pretending otherwise... The both of you read my blog... Yes, Both FranCesc Fabregas and Iqbal Khan read my blog... names changed to protect identity and privacy... but you know who you are....
anyways, will end this here... Nitez pple....
P.S: Bhaijaan and Fabregas, pls return home safely... its near a month you've been away... please wherever you are, I pray that you're safe...
Nuresha writes again
